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唉……每次都是自己骗自己… 说要读书，却读到聊天上网…功课现在正摆在一旁… T T 我，悲哀啊~ 

再20天就是trial了，我啥~~~都没开始… 唉！

今天熬夜乜~ 

PS: 最近爱上………………花钱。可是我却没有钱好花。

今晚要“搞掂”Economics功课。真的是堆积太久了。明天早上要做PP功课。

今天说了句：“开始读书是为了避免明年自杀……” 其实也满对的啦~ 或许我真会自杀呢？并不是消极，只是不要浪费地球资源。= = 套小饼那句“学习不是人生的全部,但是如果连学习都无法克服的话,我们还能做什麽？” 所以说，我真的不能干啥，因为我连读书都做不到。

Hmm.... 好吧… 继续读书啦！

and 国庆日快乐！

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和Weili出街啦~ ^ ^ 从印度回来……度假？
虽然没去啥特别的地方…

吃了东西……看了戏……

每次和她出去都很……亏欠感。因为我的费用，她几乎都付了… T T 很对不起她的说。我就好像吃东西不用钱的一样… 觉得自己真的很糟糕。之前答应请她吃DAORAE，我到现在都还没有实现到… 为有等到下一次，可是人家很久很久才回一次… 唉~ 我很过分乜。

都搞到我非常非常不好意思了…也很对不起她的说。好不容易回来，就草草了了聚会。T T I'm sooooooo sorry....

得等到明年了吧？哎哟~

还有一个，就是Regin…她总帮忙先付，要不就多付…再不就是付到完…虽然她好像真的不介意…

我啊，做人做的有点儿惨…或许我脸皮不够人家厚。
要乖乖收钱了啦！！！ 下一次的outing得还人家一个生日礼物啊… 我可快破产了。怎么办？怎么办？

难道我真的穷了？不明白我的钱到底花到哪儿了…

这两个星期都和FAMA伸手拿了钱，可他们啥都没说…也很……坦然地，给了。不说不念不骂，倒是把我搞得全身不自在…唉…都伸手到自己亏心了。

不然就是让朋友请到我自己都心虚… T T

感觉……就是……难堪。也不知道为什么。我还是喜欢AA制，互不相欠。钱和人情都一样。最怕就是从不对的人身上收到我承担不起的生日礼物… 那些人情，我根本还不来啊… T T 每次都得绞尽脑汁来偿还… 我怕欠人情… 也怕人家说我小气、自私… （（虽然我就是……））

赫~ 能怎么办… 每次都是节食存钱… 要买东西却没有多余的钱，用欠的。要出去却没有多余的钱，用借的。没钱了就饿肚子… 真羡慕那些可以撒钱的人啊… 我的零用钱是每日制，所以要用钱都得一天一天地慢慢收… 真希望我妈直接给我整个月的零用钱…那么至少我可以先买了东西才慢慢省… T T 唉~

开始读书、开始省钱、开始减肥啦！今天，熬夜吧？

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烧烤……喝了酒……也驾了车… = = 

全班都到了。赫赫~

这，算是生平第一次吧？ 

有点儿累…… 我的确比较喜欢窝在家… 还是家里比较舒服… ^ ^

想睡觉了。明天傍晚有补习呢~ T T 有点儿懒的说…

STPM时间表出炉啦…

 

时间安排得有点儿……!@#$#@%!^

得开始读书啦！Trial我都还没准备呢… 唉~

考到14号，那么年末的Concert Tour怎么办？

我怎么准备啊？唉，加油吧！不如，我去当helper就好~ 哈哈！

爬墙对象…

蠢蠢欲动……赫赫~赫~ 某鸡，你未来和前任阿爸……

切切~ 最近，都一直想爬墙……我倒想知道自己的能耐，或则说某米的能耐~ ^ ^

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Fully charged... ^ ^ I've slept for about 5 hours this afternoon...

Being sleepy all the way from 720am until 115pm these 2 days... = = I hope tomorrow will be a better day...

Last day of school this week... Gya!!! Friday is a holiday... But I need to attend tuition... T T

Ok! Bye Bye~ Good night! Everyone, have a nice day!!!

Hehehehehe~~ That hat!!! > < 

Cute isn't it? I want a puppy for my birthday next year... > < 

I ask my mum... Gya~~~~ I wan a bigggggg dog~ 

Samoyed? Grand pyreness? Alaska Malamute? Siberian Husky?

Hmm....Maltese is a no..= = Hehe!

Tattoo??? Hmm... It's a no... But it's nice pic right?

Here, one more...

Cool, isn't it?

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Since there's no homework to pass up recently, so it's quite easy for me these days....though I shouldn't be in ease.

Zuno, Junho Kim is going to have promo tour and a showcase in Malaysia. ^^ I'm glad that he is coming to Penang. I'm lucky. Haha! The showcase, I wish to go, but I have no money for the entry fee and it's also too far for me to go KL from Penang. I am excited to hear that he's coming to Penang. Hmm.. I hope I can attend on that day since it is a rare chance to see an artist that....mmm...you're more concerned about(?).

I know him because of....you know... Haha. But, I'm not comparing him to him... as they are different entity although they are twin, moreover they are fraternal (non-identical/dizygotic) twin. ((Gosh! I forgot the word "fraterna/dizygoticl" and I need to search for it on the Internet...Just lost all my memory about Science. Going to bang wall since I forgot the knowledge I've learn. What a waste for studying Science in my high school...Gya~~~))

我爸拜拜，吃了很多东西…= = ((Just lazy to make it in English...))

Watched some videos today, but I'm not so interested and fascinated... Boring... Maybe because of the show, or maybe the reason is me myself. Not no laughing today, but not much. = = Maybe I'm too tired because I do not nap this afternoon... It's midnight now.. Time to sleep, off to bed~ ^^ Annyeong. Jaljayo!

Days-Like Day.

Laughing a lot tonight. Really thanks to those funny gags in korean shows... ^^ Now I'm tired... Haven't finish up my homework, I will continue it tomorrow. It's quite late now. Time to bed.. > <

I bought a foundation today. Too white for me, I think, I looked weird in it. = = Spec or Contact lenses tomorrow? I'm a bit lazy to wear con. T T And~~~foundation? Hmm.. I think no.

Great day with great show... Gya~~

Watched CM's SM Town Concert Video, he's totally COOL! Begin to like him more... ^ ^ Minnie~~~ Haha!!! He makes me wanna go to watch his show... Those pitches, I think he's the only one who can sing so high register, among artist that I knew. ^ ^ Changminnie Oppa! Fighting. Yunho Oppa ddo, fighting!!! ^^

Someone talked to me last night, unexpectedly. Won't tell anyone about this to avoid unwanted trouble. This person is a trouble... ((I hope he/she won't see this... If you see this, MIANHAMNIDA~ I won't reveal... ^^ No worry.

Going to sleeeeeeep now~ ^^ Bye bye. Hope I can dream the one I wanted to dream soooo much... Hehe.

...as I

As stupid as I am, as stupid as I can.

……熬夜强迫症？

没有title那么严重。

醒到现在… 快4点了。我的夜，在视频中度过…

房间里的两盏灯，我都开了。

不睡觉。

醒着，真的比睡着来得好……

那种，一个人单独面对的感觉不好…

第一次吧，我不敢睡觉。觉得，不像我自己。

一个人，隔壁房，空的… 一个人，双人床… 

深夜……很静。

有时候，我宁可自己的耳朵不那么好。

渴望一个能让我安心的人在身边… 可是，我没有那样的资格。

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今天……吃太饱。话说，我还真有点虚有其表……或许应该去检讨检讨……呵~ 因为一时兴起，要吃，就去吃了。一圈，我们都涨死了。隔壁桌真的…… 我还怀疑我的胃是假的咧。或许我就是那个连呼吸都会胖的人… T  T 还呼吸是多余的？嘁！

一样，啥都没做。而且还很想睡觉。

我们的……presentation.....呃……呃呃……呃…… 呵呵……明天……呵……呃……老天保佑，明天不会轮到我们。

话说，耗子瘦了？可是帅了~ >,< 

再来一张大米 这系列的图还真难找到我觉得帅的乜~ 话说，为啥就我一个觉得不好看？（（我还是奋力地去找吧~~~~ ^ ^ 我相信我家大米不会这么……呃……不好看（众：PIA!

我还是觉得我比较适合睡觉啦……读书就……呃……呵呵…… 唉，明天还要去补习呢，一个字，闷！

New Aims

Eat my food slower   and    consume small meals

Day-dream-life.

Guilty.... Felt guilty for not doing anything these days...

Going to have my feast with my friends tomorrow at AutoCity... And I just found that I haven't treat my daughter S.G.... T T Hmm... Girl, I'm sorry, really forgot everything about it.


Everyday tell myself to start revising but....I never have started. Sigh.

不是我的本意…

其实我纯粹想吃东西而已……
只是突然想要吃，就这样而已…

现在弄到我有点不想去。

我要的是轻轻松松的外出而已。吃个东西不过分（只是比较过分的是我吃的是自助餐 = =

和人相处是我的弱点，如果吃饭不自在，倒不如我在家啃快熟面。

不排斥、不讨厌，完完全全没有贬义，
只是，事情发展并不在我想象的范围里。

我也不知道该怎么办。

상균관 스갠들  화이팅!!! ^^ 

明天早上我想吃椰浆饭~ ^ ^ 晚安啦。

^ ^ Most anticipated Drama~ SungKyunGwan Scandal~

Ohhh Yeah! and Ohhhh~ NO!!!

Oh yeah, because wuli Micky-ssi's drama is going to be broatcasted in Korea from 30th of August, 9:55pm... ^^ And I can't wait to watch!!! PS: the main actress is soooo sooo cute... 

Lee Sung Jun-ssi~~~~~ >< Kekekekeke~ 

But, it near my trial, how am I going to prepare my exam?! Sigh...

Here the teaser... ^ ^ 

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不知道为啥……闹钟没响，所以……睡迟了。老妈来敲门的时候差不多7点了，学校720上课，所以……我又~逃课了。

没做啥，上网、看小说、整理功课… 今天看了两场Concerts……的 DVDs。当然，是跟人家借的。

其实今天看的两场，我之前也看过了，只是又看… 依然是佩服他们、崇拜他们… 太神了。而当然他们为了梦想付出的，我或许一生都无法体会的吧。最爱最爱就是Acapella。^ ^ 也就是当初喜欢上他们的原因。又高、又帅、又超级实力派的偶像不多……呃，长得非常偶像的实力派艺人？~  嘻嘻…… 不爽者，绕路~  ^ ^

郁闷都烟消魂散了…头顶上的乌云走了……我，晴天了。 = =

PS：我忘了做PA的Presentation.!!! = =算了，明天再搞…　数学我也还没做。我，悲哀。

胡言之 小说…

为了看小说，和自己过不去…唉… 第四篇啊，我终于看完了。原本已经睡眠不足了，依然撑着看到现在…不得不佩服我自己啊。

这几天，闷着… 虽然不知道为什么… 但是我觉得我应该没事了。至少现在我是这样觉得的。

前几篇我年头看了，可是现在就不怎么记得故事情节了…呃，要不要重新看过呢？现在正连载这第五篇聂~ 我还没看……还没想要看。

我很喜欢小说，因为可以学到很多东西…任何东西…… 英文、中文小说都好。感情、处事、知识…… 

小说，我偏爱虐心虐肺的虐文、悲文……BG、BL都好。

漫画出租店里的小说，我感兴趣的都被我看完了……现在等我朋友介绍，因为懒得找。网上，我只看同文，为了满足自己的好奇心和想象力… 

每个人看小说的taste都不同。最悲哀的是，我看的文，都没人能分享… 几~无奈一下……呵~

该睡了，明天上课注定钓鱼…… 安安~ ^ ^ 

我喜欢这样的秀秀…一脸认真地俊秀~ ^ ^

((((((安然？安逸？许诺？简约？严槿？> < 这些不是形容词……))))))

Unintended - Muse

"Unintended"

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
She could never be as good as you

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You should be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

Before you

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Not in a good mood these days. Down, sad... with no reason.Maybe just because I can't make everything organized. Sigh~

Keep dreaming these days about ....... . Though I didn't remember any of the story lines. If it's a sign, then I hope it will be a good one. 

Going to sleep early tonight. Good night. 

So.....?

Sad feeling surrounding me with no reason. Just feel down, emotional...

It's midnight now, but I don't feel sleepy at all. Weird. 

Just finished some homework. Not going to continue it. 

Really weird feeling.......but why? I just can't figure it out. *Sigh*

May it be........ Hmm....maybe, maybe not. It's not the one I should concern now. 

Maybe I should just go into my bed then I might feel better than... ^ ^

ㅋㅋㅋ` 잘자요~~

Still feeling sleepy after an 8-hr sleep, so I'm going to back to my bed now~ ^^ Goooood night! 

유천이 오빠, 안 아프…?  .........Hmm, as long as you happy... 안녕~ 

睡觉最大！！！

真痛？假痛？

痛…真的痛？ 这几天腰疼了，痛得自己嗷嗷叫… 其实，真的有那么痛吗？我自己也无法给自己明确的答案。

是我自己太怕疼了吗？还是真的很痛很痛。

一步一步地……走，有时还得停下来歇会儿… 不让就只趴着、躺着…

去哪儿都得扶着东西，墙、椅子、栏杆… 太痛，还会发抖呢……赫``

这些情节、动作，都让我觉得我在演戏…… 或许，戏是这样演的？

自怜？呃……有点儿。

小说看多，太痛，忍着……久了，用力过多，会脸色惨白… 当然我没有，因为我就趴着，不想动太多。

小说里，忍痛了，久了，休克了。这，真的吗？当然我没有必要尝试…因为如果晕了，没人搬得动我，省掉不必要的麻烦。^ ^

突然觉得自己多半活在小说的美好世界里…另一半却总执着着现实… 矛盾啊…

套句俊秀说的话，“出生最难了”~ 对啊……为什么要出生呢？我，也不知道。

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医生是看了…药也吞了……似乎也没什么效。或许是药效还没发挥作用…… = = 真希望明天一觉醒来就不疼了。T T 得弯着腰走路，很吃力乜…

今天缺席，没去上课… 而我却忘记跟医生拿MC，几笨一下… 唉，算了。如果星期一不好，我觉得我还是直接打针比较好。T T 唉，周末假日也就这样，完蛋了。

再不就就是Trial了，一眨眼，就是STPM了。而我，啥都没准备… 真是该死。

小饼的戏好像明年才会播出… 那么大米的也……唉~ 也好，反正快考试了，不读归不读…试还是得考，只怕自己把它考焦了。

上网没什么事做…想写写东西却脑袋空空。最近的大爱是《Fate of The Gods》，也就是我最近在玩的一首歌… 想透过这次的trip好好把trumpet练好… 希望我爸妈会实践他们的承诺。(^3^)

最近几缺钱一下，下课不去食堂，似乎也省不了多少。唉… 买了一个tuner RM60,还蛮好用的说… 有了tuner才知道原来自己sharp得很… = = 奇怪的是，怎么没人说我呢？Slide开出来是原本的两倍，怪不得高音总是上不去，低音下不来… 唉，现在才发现tuner有多~~~好。呃……加油吧！（（话说，老师似乎不怎么赞同F6的人出场…我和宁是否应该去吹不重要的part呢？文是说我们组不够人…因为根本加f1f2的人啊。唉，真是难做人。讨厌！

既然没事做，我又要去睡觉了。今天也差不多睡了整天。腰，还是很不舒服…

晚安啦！^^ 

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医生是看了…药也吞了……似乎也没什么效。或许是药效还没发挥作用…… = = 真希望明天一觉醒来就不疼了。T T 得弯着腰走路，很吃力乜…

今天缺席，没去上课… 而我却忘记跟医生拿MC，几笨一下… 唉，算了。如果星期一不好，我觉得我还是直接打针比较好。T T 唉，周末假日也就这样，完蛋了。

再不就就是Trial了，一眨眼，就是STPM了。而我，啥都没准备… 真是该死。

小饼的戏好像明年才会播出… 那么大米的也……唉~ 也好，反正快考试了，不读归不读…试还是得考，只怕自己把它考焦了。

上网没什么事做…想写写东西却脑袋空空。最近的大爱是《Fate of The Gods》，也就是我最近在玩的一首歌… 想透过这次的trip好好把trumpet练好… 希望我爸妈会实践他们的承诺。(^3^)

最近几缺钱一下，下课不去食堂，似乎也省不了多少。唉… 买了一个tuner RM60,还蛮好用的说… 有了tuner才知道原来自己sharp得很… = = 奇怪的是，怎么没人说我呢？Slide开出来是原本的两倍，怪不得高音总是上不去，低音下不来… 唉，现在才发现tuner有多~~~好。呃……加油吧！（（话说，老师似乎不怎么赞同F6的人出场…我和宁是否应该去吹不重要的part呢？文是说我们组不够人…因为根本加f1f2的人啊。唉，真是难做人。讨厌！

既然没事做，我又要去睡觉了。今天也差不多睡了整天。腰，还是很不舒服…

晚安啦！^^ 

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This pain is killing me!!

好痛！ 无端端地，痛了。巨痛！

早上还好好的，下课的时候就开始有感觉了…从乐室会班时，就开始痛了。直到换节换班，得站起来，才发现，完蛋了…无法站好，也无法走路。就这样，我扶着墙、栏杆、桌子才能慢慢地、慢慢地走到隔壁去。当能站是，坐下来又是个问题… 最后两节，我就在疼痛中度过… ㅠ ㅠ 放学了，又得走回班上那书包，再来就是要从4楼走下去，在走超过100米的路，到我的车。也就是这样，反复地折腾着，我终于爬上车了。

回家，下车，吃饭，上楼，下楼，走动，冲凉，上厕所……通通都得给折腾一番才能做到。

最严重就是，一旦趴在床上，就绝对起不来。（还好睡着没那么惨……）

由于行动不便，去不了补习，也只好睡午觉。

晚上，又是一番折腾… 几痛苦一下。

明天确定没去上课了。唉…  

今年年头就有过这类经验，可是这次更糟糕。那次是自己的生日期间，也是那朋友的生日…因为约好了去看戏+shopping,所以就顶着疼痛，去了。那次，几惨一下… 我朋友一直得陪着我…唉~ 

这次，真的……或许……需要看医生。真希望明天一觉醒来就痊愈了。= =

行动不便，又没人能帮我…去洗手都得花上几分钟。家里也没啥能扶着，只能找桌子、橱、门… 墙壁又太滑，没能抓着… 痛苦啊… 走一步路，喊一次痛… 有几次还真的痛得想死… 

能怎么办？什么都不能办！

PS：因为这样，我绝对能理解某人有多疼… （只是，某人有钱治疗、有人照顾，我没有…

x laptop x life

I've sent my laptop to Sony to fix it's DVD drive... Now, actually, I supposed using my brother's laptop to write here... But my  mum just took it and lock it in her steel-cupboard. Though I took out yesterdat, erh...with my own way...i broke the cupboard and took it. = = I give it back to her since she's giving me her shit-liked face... Argh!!!

No laptop, no life. There are lots of thing to watch and I haven't watch. ((Though all my stuff are inside my external hard disk. But, you know... it's not nice to use desktop pc... = =

Maybe I'll just connect my External HDD tonight, if I'm bored. I hope this computer doesn't have ANY virus... I don't want to lose all my data inside...Since they are important, very important, extremely important...and many of it are hard to find, especially Videos. PS: I'd transferred all my documents in my laptop into this HDD... So there shall have no accident, or else, I would cry for days!!! Grrr~~~~

All the bookmarks that I saved are inside those laptops and there isn't anything in this computer. What the heck~ !

Blah blah blah!!! 

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